eh... if i cared, this would be different

guess who hasn't updated in a long time? oh oh... i know... me! and guess who isn't real interested in updating right now? oh oh i know again... me! and guess who really just doesn't care because this is just a waste of time? goodness.. i know this one too.... it's ME!

the semester has started. classes are hard. there are not nearly enough hours in the day and i seem to lack the ability to cram into one day everything i need to. i love my staff in the dorm i work in now. they're family. that aspect of college is great. classes are not so. i spent an hour and a half working on math homework in the lab today because i had to figure out the graphing program... extra credit math homework mind you... and i didn't finish. i haven't gotten to the actual assigned work yet. i've got about 7 chapters of random things yet to read and a 2 page summary to write for a class. oh yay. hurray for just having finished the FIRST week of classes and already being weighed down by work.

i've come to the conclusion that i can be really content with life until something comes along that i can't have. regardless of whether or not i want it, if it's something i can't have i have a selfish desire to have it anyway. just to clarify, i'm not speaking entirely on a materialistic level here.

i'm bored. i feel rather alone today. i don't know where anyone is and i'm used to having my staff around all the time. i need to read, forget about human interaction. bye