shawano...

well... after hearing endlessly about the lovely town of shawano from ashley and lisa... i finally had a chance to visit this weekend. not only had i heard all about shawano... but i felt like i'd heard so much about kira, emily and joe that i should have known them already, though last night was our first meeting. ash and i were talking in the car about how weird it was that this was the first time of my meeting them since we both agreed that i knew so much about them that it felt like i'd known them for a long time. anyway, i did indeed meet them last night. we went to the shawano high school musical, fiddler on the roof, last night. it was pretty decent. there were definitely some people who should not have been singing, but that just made it amusing. with my cold though i just felt tired out, so sitting in the dark for however many hours it lasted made staying conscious difficult. after the play, the 'emlikias tribe' (emily, lisa, kira & ashley), joe and myself smashed into lisa's car and went to perkins for pie. a good time was had by all... though iwas mostly the silent observer because i clearly didn't understand the inside jokes that are their way of communicating. then we went to lisa's and hung out in her basement. all but i were smashed onto one couch.. looked quite cozy. again... i was the silent one. anything ash and lisa's friends had been told about me (such as maybe i'm fun...) was probably dashed because i was sick and quiet, but oh well. when lisa went to take everyone home she successfully backed out of her garage and took off a side mirror on both of her family's cars. lets just say that everyone feared for her life and she came home to me looking a little less than comfortable with what had happened. today we watched movies, i did some poli sci and we headed back here... in the rain.

in the past 24 hours, i have offically become jealous of lisa and ash and their circle of friends. i have an overwhelming desire to just 'become' part of their group. obviously that doesn't work, but it made me wish i had something like that growing up at home. i have friends yes, but the friendships that i observed are just different. i don't know... i guess i just live an entirely different lifestyle at home, and always have, so such things just aren't meant to be. makes me appreciate college though and the friendships i've developed. well... my poli sci quiz in the morning is hanging over my head, so i better dig into that book because my incredibly loathing of that class makes studying 100x more difficult. ta ta for now.