*yawn* why am i still up?

i'm exhausted. i've had no time to catch up on sleep from my week away at camp. it was a good week, sprinkled generously with challenges. a girl almost died during the swimming test from an asthma attack that led to shock and her going unconscious. that was freaky, but i got first hand experience with that. girls in my cabin kept getting sick throughout the week so i frequented the nurses with my ailing campers quite often. i held a 12 year old girl in my arms who was sobbing uncontrollably and clinging to me for dear life after finding out that her baby sister had just been born not breathing and might not live. she went home late that night. it was heartwrenching. that was the biggest challenge, but her faith in God was astounding and inspiring. it was a good week for personal growth.

i might be picking up another 20 hours at work. this is my test week. i think it's going to exhaust me and i'll have zero free time because i'll roughly work am AND pm from 6-10, and sunday from 4-8. we'll see. i need to figure out how capable i am of doing this and whether or not i'm willing to give up my life entirely. i guess i'd have friday, saturday and monday nights free, but that's not much. much thinking shall be done this week.

i'm tired. 4:45 is coming along quite quickly. kim and melissa were over tonight and i was falling asleep watching tv, so i finally told them i had to get ready for bed and they ended up leaving. i felt kinda bad. last night was late too, but we had fun all piling onto brian's couch to watch a movie. 5 people on one couch... brian was on top of us all and the most comfortable. apparently last week at work was the week from hell. i missed it all of course, but i was told rather emphatically that some of the campers got on the bus directly in hell and drove to camp matz.... glad i wasn't there. i hope this week is better. to bed with me.

update? who does that?

i'm failing miserably at keeping this thing updated thus far this summer. such a tragedy i know because my life is so riveting. this afternoon we had our last training session for work. we should be good to go... and considering campers are coming in tomorrow morning, i sure as heck hope we are. this is going to be an interesting summer, but i think it'll be fun. i don't honestly remember if i've mentioned that i'm working at a camp for people with cognative disabilities, but i am. it's a stretch outside my comfort zone, but good for me and lovely for my resume. my staff is fun and i'm excited. i think it's gonna be good. personal cares will be awkward for a while, but soon enough it'll become second nature. never imagined i'd be doing this kind of work... never in a million years. oh how our mindset can change. nadine and i are currently working on picking up 20 more hours a week so we've got full time hours. the only problem is that i'd work from 6-10am t-f and 6-10pm m-th and sundays from 4-8. not sure i love the idea of driving back into work at night and losing all of my nights, but we shall see. it may not happen at all. it's currently just an idea.

i've done little other than work these past two weeks. friday and saturday my cousins were visiting so we spent all day down by the lake at my grandparents and gave my 5 month old cousins their first experience with a lake. emma enjoyed it thoroughly, alaina was too sleepy. my mind is mush... i'm too tired. pretty sure i've done nothing else that could possibly be exciting so i quit. nighty night.