mel's matters: December 2005

here's what i've got so far...

well my break has been off to a fast but slow start. good luck figuring that out. i have yet to actually have any substantial down time at home since arriving home... what day is it? thursday? ok, i got home a week ago. i can't keep track of the days anymore. anyway, last thursday i was home all of 45 minutes when i rushed out the door again to go to a christmas party for my mom's work and to see the nutcracker ballet in milwaukee: late night, lots of people i didn't know, awkward situations and an uncomfortable bus ride, but the food was good, as was the ballet, though i was far too tired to fully enjoy it. after that, the next thing i know, it's christmas eve and while spending time with visiting family, i'm informed that i will be caring for my gramma who has cancer for the next week. i was given a quick run through of the basics and i found myself swimming in information, feeling totally unprepared and wondering what i missed in leading up to this point. then comes christmas.. that was fine and good. nice time at home, nice time with mom's family, enjoyed Nikki's 4 day old twin girls. that night was my first night with gramma, and sleep was not my friend. i woke up nearly every hour out of fear that if she needed me, i wouldn't wake up. due to that, monday was not my best day and another day with mom's family was ended rather poorly because i was a wreck due to lack of sleep, having not had the chance to wind down from finals and stress over gramma. tuesday afternoon my aunt and uncle came for the night to take over. gramma had a memory lapse. everything slowly came back to her, except for the fact that she had cancer. what a horrid thing to have to relearn. there were more issues with her bandage leaking, and la di da, not going to go into it, suffice it to say that i've dealt with it a few times now and have mastered taking care of that. now that i'm in the swing of things it's fine. mom is currently taking over for me, though i'll be going over after i finish this. i should get lots of reading done, as long as i don't end up like last night with a splitting headache that leaves me withered on the couch with my eyes watering. so my break isn't exciting, but they never are. i might be doing this next week now too, as well as possibly babysitting for a little tyke for a week somewhere along the line. i'd really appreciate some information being passed my way if i'm to do all this. looks like i'm never to be at home, but how would i know anyway, no one tells me a darn thing! well it's late... i've gotta run. bubye

and that's a rap...

yes... finals and semester 1 of my sophomore year of college are complete. thank goodness. today was pretty much horrible. my roommate of 3 semester and the girl who knows me probably better than anyone moved out today. that was horribly hard. i didn't expect it to be so hard to watch her go. we've had so much fun over these last 3 semesters and grown so fond of each other. i do believe we were to the point that we could complete eachothers sentences. we just kinda stood in our semi-empty room crying our goodbyes to each other... a sad sight to say the least. i envy that she got to go to her car and head home as opposed to staying here to take another final before heading home the next day. man, lauren and i really had some amazing fun. we found the dumbest things funny, but that's how we worked, we knew each other so well that we could make fun out of literally anything. this sounds like the sad ending to a happy story. i guess it is sort of, but i'd really prefer to think of it as the closure of one chapter, and we'll pick back up in a slightly different fashion next year. i really would just like to go home now and forget about this till january when i come back and she heads to london though. i'm so happy that she gets to spend a semester in london, how cool. i just wish i were going.

in every respect other than lauren having to leave, i'm so glad this semester is over. it's been long and amazingly trying. i've learned that i can survive a lot... but i don't want to experience all of that ever again. last night zach said that i've worried him all semester cause i seemed so stressed a lot of the time. i couldn't say much to that, but lisa jumped in and said,' zach, if only you knew everything that girl has gone though.' so good-bye semester, hello much needed winter break. on another happier note, my cousin Nikki had her twins today, Emma and Alaina. i'm quite excited to go home and see them, not to mention all the rest of the family. and i'm going to the nutcracker ballet with my parents and my mom's office tomorrow night.

so i've got some good things ahead of me. yeah, i have to say that life can be hard, but it always throws some good things in there with it all to keep you going. ya just gotta keep going, that's all there is to it. until later.... bubye

the end is near

it's been a while since i posted anything of merit, so i thought i'd give it a shot. i'm sure i'll fail dreadfully in producing any meritable substance, but here goes:

i'm now done with classes for the semester and finals are looming overhead. again i've done a remarkable job of procrastinating, so i have 4 long dull chapters of history to read. but... considering the amount of stuff i've had to do this past week for that and other classes, i really think i'm coming along quite nicely. having only the history left to read is astonishing... now i just need to get it done and be ready for the exams. we're into 'intensive quiet hours' here in the dorms so basically we must all become mutes. we're also in the finals schedule for working desk, so i put in my 7 hours today and have more in the coming days. at least we can talk down there.

in other more exciting news, we have a considerable amount of fluffy snow on the ground which looks perfect for romping in and coincidentally, i won a sled at CRU last night... now somebody just find me some time. brendon and i had a jolly time driving around the night the snow fell. stevens point apparently doesn't believe in plowing snow covered roads as long as its still snowing, so the roads were buried under inches of fluff that make small cars get stuck and jeep owners quite happy (or at least brendon). a few donuts were done, a few corners fish-tailed around... you know, the driving that makes you nervous when it's happening and once foot hits ground you say: FUN! i also experienced the sport of broomball. i wasn't playing, but wished i had been. looked quite fun.

well that small bit about wraps up my life. until wednesday night i will be chained to my books with the potential desire of death hovering around me. one more thing though.... today marks the day that Jordan becomes old like me! happy birthday bud and welcome to the wonderful age of 20. it's all downhill from here...

that's all for now... bubye

apparently i have been tagged and am now suppose to enlighten you all with 5 weird things about me. it was originally habits, but i think i'm too random to have real habits. here goes:

1. my roommate and i can be amused by the dumbest things and tend to make photo/video shoots out of anything and everything we do, like laying on the floor...
2. i choose to spend large quantities of time in barns with cows
3. when i have a lot to do, i put it all off till the last minute cause i apparently enjoy the feeling of panic induced dying
4. i am 20 years old and still hide around corners to jump out and scare people
5. i can meticulously organize other people's things, but my things and life are in more or less of an organized chaos, leaning heavily on the chaos

now i'm suppose to be tagging other people to do this, but who really cares. but if you feel so compelled... be my guest.