eh... if i cared, this would be different

guess who hasn't updated in a long time? oh oh... i know... me! and guess who isn't real interested in updating right now? oh oh i know again... me! and guess who really just doesn't care because this is just a waste of time? goodness.. i know this one too.... it's ME!

the semester has started. classes are hard. there are not nearly enough hours in the day and i seem to lack the ability to cram into one day everything i need to. i love my staff in the dorm i work in now. they're family. that aspect of college is great. classes are not so. i spent an hour and a half working on math homework in the lab today because i had to figure out the graphing program... extra credit math homework mind you... and i didn't finish. i haven't gotten to the actual assigned work yet. i've got about 7 chapters of random things yet to read and a 2 page summary to write for a class. oh yay. hurray for just having finished the FIRST week of classes and already being weighed down by work.

i've come to the conclusion that i can be really content with life until something comes along that i can't have. regardless of whether or not i want it, if it's something i can't have i have a selfish desire to have it anyway. just to clarify, i'm not speaking entirely on a materialistic level here.

i'm bored. i feel rather alone today. i don't know where anyone is and i'm used to having my staff around all the time. i need to read, forget about human interaction. bye

wooo... S-T-R-E-S-S... and the semester hasn't even started yet! amazing. being a CA is more work than i ever dreamed. personally i'm doing ok, my floor is pretty much ready to the best of my ability, but in general there is tons to be done and i've been helping others wherever possible cause that's what i do. somehow i seem to have taken on the mother role for some. well no, mother only in the fact that i've been really really trying to make the guys go to bed at night. mostly earl and chris who won't listen anyway so it's pointless. intersting times. tonight a few too many people were slap happy due to lack of sleep and my normal dumb comments (added to being tired and stressed) made me the resident comedian. i certainly wasn't trying to be, it just happened. must have burned a lot of calories in that laughing session, which was about the 3rd of the day. couldn't finish my dinner the first time. darn chris. i love my staff. they rock. it's gonna be a good year. behind closed doors today (our confrontation test of sorts) was scary and overwhelming, so i'm not looking forward to actually DOing my job, i just adore my staff and being with them. good times. pray-sims rowdy rowdy. tomorrow is my last day to get everything done. *deep breath* i need sleep. goodnight.