the end is near!

school is almost over. year number 3 of my college career is very rapidly coming to a close. i can hardly believe that i only have 2 more weeks of classes after this week and even more difficult to grasp is the fact that i'm nearly a senior in college. for the most part this has been a good semester. it's had it's ups and downs, but test grades recently have been well worth a smile... so hopefully the improvement continues through finals. stress has been much more limited than last semester which has helped immensely. and chris has probably been the best part of it all. it's funny how much of a difference one person can make in a life and how that can alter perceptions of pretty much everything. i'm not gonna lie... it's really nice to always have him there to fall back on and to always have a shoulder to cry on and someone to reasure you. like really really nice. i was quite content being single, i'd gotten used to it and it worked for me, but this relationship stuff is pretty darn good.

so i'm pretty happy and life is pretty good right now. and if it were rational, i could make this work forever. but i'll be patient and see what God has in store. he smacked me in the face with chris earlier this year, so i'm slowly learning that he ultimately has a plan and it's pointless for me to try to figure things out on my own. i tend to come to the wrong conclusion a lot. in bible study last night we talked about what we are seeking in our lives and how we should be wholeheartedly seeking God. sometimes that's such a hard thing to master because the here and now is so distracting, but when we truly surrender and truly seek God's will... things just fall into place so much better! a lot of times i feel like i have much better ideas that would be easier on me, but that runs along with something pastor berg said on sunday: we can't depend on God to protect us from difficulties and suffering, we can only depend on him to get us through it. so often i feel like my ideas would be so much less painful and so much easier, but they wouldn't return the same results, so forget that idea! life is so exciting sometimes when God starts to give us a glimps of something that he's been holding in store of us! i feel like i've had a glimps recently... and yes... it's pretty exciting!